what does it all boil down 2?

this year has been strangely apathetic. now there are so many things that i couldnt care less about. lets be brutally honest:

i dont care about most of the cell now
i dont care about the friends who are going 2 hell
i dont care about ushering
i cant be bothered about people dying in africa
i cant be bothered about people not hearing the gospel in sudan
i cant be bothered about all the chalets that i am supposed 2 organize

why? because everything is selfish. sickening isnt it?

lets be really selfish now.
why should i care about all these?

the bastards in the cell can jolly take care of themselves.
ill tell my friends the gospel and let them rot in hell.
ushering can go screw itself for its lousy management.
the rest of the cultured world can throw its food at the africans instead of atomic bombs.
missionaries will go 2 sudan in the end.
ill book the chalet and ill collect all the money back.

ugly, everything is ugly.