at last. but is it shit?

im finally not grounded. sorry about keeping this blog so barren. its not easy just seating down watching my brother playing computer n doing stuff that i cant. but. what is there 2 do? serves me right for not working hard. hmm. its been fine for me though. just read n watch TV n practice piano n staring at my phone. keeping my sanity by waiting for someone to message me. hahah. sounds abit exaggerated but ahwells. now im free. not sure whether that is a good thing though. sometimes i think it is best 2 have a fulltime grounding on me. its miserable to see time just fly past. especially when im having fun. it seems that i have almost no control over myself when i have fun. time is never a variable taken into consideration. maybe this limit is good. limits test ur discipline n endurance. i must limit myself. curfew for playing n chatting. limits for how much time can be wasted. yupp. for next year. n not being grounded means spending more time outside. n away from home sometimes makes me guilty. are friends more important than family? thats d question. so i think its best for my life to be a grounding. maybe some allowance. but thats all. a compromise. hahah. what is this.