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do u ever feel lyk ppl dun gif u enuf opportunites.......lyk u r bein left out.......lyk ur neither here nor dere.......neither good nor bad.......i do....in waterpolo......not d best......not d lousiest......stuck in d middle......not good enuf.....nor bad enuf.......so weird lah.......cant make it 2 1st team........yet cant make it 2 2nd team........no opportunites 2 be d best i can........i feel lyk a failure........mabbe i am.......most probably i am.......y dun i jus gif up........i can never make it.......its jus useless 2 continue.......so lyk lost now..........do i gif up.........or do i jus continue bein dis failure i am