USELESS

I BLEW IT.......all dis tawk of changin......all dis tawk of bein a better person......all d tears shed wen realisin tt i was astray.......n tt i needed 2 change.....all GONE......GONE......f*ck......i can never change......jus lyk a leopard can never change its spots........i can never be good.......i can never get rid of DIS side of mi......NEVER.......2dae i broke dis resolution tt i made 2 stop saein f*ck......i jus blew it........mi dam frenz.......i lent dem mi hp.......n dey sent "i luv u" 2 gal contacts.......n i jus lost it.........pointed d finger.......n saed f*ck........OH MAN........i can never change........u hear mi???.........NEVER........its useless tryin 2..........i tried so mani times..........ITS DAM USELESS........ive lost lyk all hope..........im a failure........im a useless person........dun try 2 help mi.........ITS USELESS 2 TRY HELPIN A USELESS PERSON.......LORD PLEASE.........DO NOT PUT MI THRU DIS.........PLEASE........LORD I WANTED 2 CHANGE........BUT IT JUS SEEMS USELESS TRYIN NOW.........i jus feel lyk i hv hardened miself........i dunno y.......but mi heart has grown numb......NUMB 2WARDS U......i hate dis feelin........i feel jus so pissed wif miself.......y am i so DAM NUMB.........PLEASE DO SUMTHIN LORD........DO SUMTHIN WIF MI.........mabbe its useless 2 even sae........coz i sux........