Tuesday, July 12, 2005

why?

i hate pride.......freak it........i try so hard to keep it down........but everyone keeps reminding me about it........please........stop saying that im good or anything please?........im really trying to stop thinking about that.........God i really dunno why u made mi like that.......i really dunno wat ur trying 2 do 2 me..........until now i really cannot find my strengths.......wat d heck.........i seem 2 be able to do everything as well........i really dunno.........why did u make me like that.........i think my weakness is pride.......freak dis ego of mine.........d more people talk big about me TO me.........woah i feel so good........i sound so evil.......but that is the thought process going on in my brain........i really hate it........how can i learn to be humble?........how can i learn humility?........turn d attention to God?.......but its so damn difficult........i really dun like me........someone please come into my life n show me my place........cos i really dunno where is it.......jus 2dae i found out something.......another girl has a freaking crush on me........freak it man........i hate dis........y issit all this shit happens to me........wat is God trying to teach me from this.......i really dunno........i really dunno how to handle this........please Lord help me........i dun wan to hurt anyone by telling d truth........but neither do i wan to live with this.......i dun have any wish to be in a relationship anytime now........now all my frens r taunting me........wah gf seh........freak u all man........

6 Comments:

Blogger van said...

Come on David, all these are just part and parcel of life. Gals and guys having soft spots, crushes and all that. I believe everyone goes thru these same probs u are going thru. And as for pride, you know, i'm a rather prideful person and whenever pple praise me and all, i won't really say things like: no la, where got" cuz it'll only make our head swell. I'd just say thankew. And if i know that it was gonna make me prideful, i'd tell the person to not keep saying that i'm good and all that and i'll tell them the reason why.

I guess we gotta find ways to stop ourselves from being prideful. And you know the bible says that we must be humble? To follow as Jesus is? Jesus is humble and we gotta be humble too. See ah.. If Jesus, the Son of God is humble, we too shld also be humble. Who are we to be prideful?? Hmmm.. Am i making sense here? =)

10:32 AM  
Blogger matt said...

On pride - we cannot just shift the blame onto the situations as the situation will always be there. Pride is something that everyone will have to deal with themselves. As to the "how" I got no specific answer because everyone deals with it differently but i can tell you that it is not a one time thing. People deal with it throughout their lives. Even I am not done with it.(how encouraging eh) So learn it good while you are young.
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Relationships come and go at this age. They mean now more as fashion accessories rather then what realationships are meant to be. As In the light of this, relationships have lost their meaning. Peer pressure can be daunting but hold fast to your belief yeah? You don't need a gf. By doing so you risk your parents. You will lie to them and quarrel with them over that and in doing so you risk God too. Displaying disrespect to parents equates sin. Whats more, you trade time with God for time with her. You will get all this no matter how godly she is. Why trade so many things just to get a certain feeling?

If anything is God's will for you, you wouldn't need to lie your way through.

Hahs so much for relationships. Press on towards the goal yeah? Seek God's approval instead the approval of man. Its wiser. Be wise, seek wisdom.

12:45 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey david. you know ill always be your secret keeper. ill never tell anyone. i guess theyre just jealous of you - jeez how many guys have girls that have crushes on them? yeah i know how you feel about the unwanted attention. relax. theyll get theirs one day soon.
its good to see that youre trying to change. we all suffer this at one point or another - i remember showing off in p1 when i topped the level lol - but you will get over it too. its phases that you go through in life. cheers and God bless.

5:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

heya...
u noe, no one is perfect, realli...
ego is sumthing dat even de most humble person will be sometimes...
look lyk name 1 person dat has NVR been prideful or wateva.. n if u can... how sure r u of dis ?
well... relationships at dis age r normally a kinda hit n run thing, wich meanz it'll soon blow over...
ha... i dun realli understand wat i juz sed... newayz, keep cool,yea?

11:25 PM  
Blogger Julia Kwan said...

hey, everyone has their own pride. no one wans 2 put it dwn. and understand dat we're only humans. n as for da relationship thing. ahems. i told u all i cld alr. it's scary really. n continue tu live by God. n if u need hlp jus contact me lah. we all care. (:

12:01 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello friend,

Long time since I pass this way.

You want to know how a person really becomes humble?
It's when you realize how weak, vulnerable and incapable you're! It's knowing that you CAN'T and that you have to bend your knees and hand it over to God who CAN!

How can you don't see that???

Well, someone says something about infatuation that makes a lot of sense. The reason why a person had to deal with hurts arising from a broken infatuation is because God is doing a work on his/her life to make that person more mature! So, going by that, God is doing a work on that girl's life - not yours!!

Passing Through...

11:39 AM  

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