Tapitoo: a pathetic letdown
its sickening to think how much i do not push myself. when ones limits r boundless he subdues himself to what is contained within his own shell. thats partly why people r where they r today, they r just purposeless. i have been a letdown my entire life, dammit. cross country - i stopped and stopped and stopped and got 50th. studies - i didnt make the grade and got 2.89 for overall GPA in the first semester. friends - this is the second time i was not accountable to others when i said i would give help them along with their quiet time. friends again - i owe some of my friends testimonials on friendster already 4 a few weeks. spiritual life - i letdown god when i didnt make him part of my studies on wednesday and totally screwed up my physics quiz. it all just culminates into a point when all the regret just flows out through the fingers flying over the keyboard and you just feel like clenching your fists and smashing the computer screen. the guilty pangs just come, hitting you literally like satanic punches. its wrong to hate yourself, its wrong to bear grudges, its wrong not to accept your shortcomings. but i still do. the devil attacks in many different ways some bold and outright. others subtle and discreet. but i still am sucuumbing to this shit. true perfection is never attainable, and we all r still clay in d process of being moulded. god i pray u be with me today and i thank u 4 all that has passed, it is a very valuable lesson that i have learnt and i will remember d next time i fall. knowing that u r in control at all times, i surrender myself 2 u, and i trust that u will be my portion, my strength, and my shield. amen
9 Comments:
Still, believe in yourself.
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its okay just that you believe that God is your helper in times of need...be close to him he will sure help you...don't be worried about anything, there is always something behind what ever you have done or doing:)
hello tatwai your polo 2007 gold medal winning team mate here. :D
Always believe in yourself, you arent a letdown at all. Cross country or grades are really too insignificant to measure the kind person that you are. Theres much more beauty in yourself, I trust. (Fyi i got owned in cross country hahaha)
Keep that smile on your face, but more importantly, in your heart as well. :)
whoever said you are a letdown? Look at that...so many people support you in becoming house captain, and many respect you as their monitor...that a letdown? Never let anything get you down. If you fall down, pick yourself up. I've fallen too, you know about what, and i'm in the process of picking myself up. GPA? Go study harder, given that God put you in RI, he obviously thinks you have the capability to do better. You're right, in that you have to push yourself, but don't let it be the foucs till you forget God. You can give yourself the kickstart, but let God be that guiding momentum in you. always remeber dude, you never was, are and will be a letdown. Who cares about friendster testimonials? honestly..they don't count for zilch....
dNg
You're not practising what you preach y'know! Some kind of father you are hahaha. Only joking. But anyway, I don't think I had to tell you what was wrong with me, cause it seemed like we went through pretty similar stuff. You know what? Why do we always do all those things when we know it's wrong, and God will be displeased? The way we insult His creations by picking on ourselves. Find refuge, in praying, spending time with Him.
True perfection? God doesn't expect that. He would only wish for us to be more like Him, and worship Him in every way we can.
Just give it all to God, okay? Don't tell me you've forgotten Galatians 6:2. I'm always here okay! :DD <- supposed to be a REALLY REALLY BIG SMILE
haiz. tatwai dun so emo. dun let these letdowns hinder you frm ur ultimate goal =D
God bless! (: i'm really an anon, just chanced upon ur blog. you seem like an awesome person, so yeah! have FAITH. (: hope you'll become happier!
eh yo im here too okay! i just found your blog! cheer up man we gonna own b div next year dont you worry. just score one goal and you can rely on your keeper to keep a cleansheet...
OH MY the world is so small!
chanced upon your blog while checking my friend's blog out.
anyway PRESS ON DAVID. God did not say that life would be fair or smoothsailing; instead he promised to be there for us when we call out to him.
seen you since you were that lil pri 6 boy and boy i'm reallyreally proud and glad to see you grow up - in maturity and in the spirit! :) continue being such a warrior for Christ :)
much prayers,
adora
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