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Tapitoo: The Embelishment of Faith

forgive my previous post. xD

thank you also for all your tags =), nicky, nicole, julia, daryl, kaka, ahphui, joanna, i really appreciate every single one of them. what i have on my hands doesnt seem like alot now looking at it. and im sure there are many other people out there who are juggling more than just this. =)

btw - this year is the year of Moor. =)

today god spoke.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entagnles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Hebrews 12:1-3

and he always hits the bullseye. every single time. the only constant we can constantly count on, constantly hits accurately constant. xD havent posted nonsense in a long time.
the reason why such turmoil, was because my focus was not on god. thus the worldly pressures of the temporal moment clouded my eternal perspective. julia, you are quite right in saying that. and because of this, i had inhumane expectations from myself; unattainable results of which would never fail to throw me into a depressive state.
and im always reminded of the time after retreat, when i was so looking forward to school, to facing the stress together with him. though i have failed thus far, but school isnt over yet. =)

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the JOY set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

at first i didnt understand why joy. of all the words, why JOY? all the suffering, the blood, the pain notwithstanding? but now i understand. the joy refers to the aftermath of the cruxification. when the world was set free from their burdens, sin was shed off the heads of men, and jesus conqured the grave. where does this joy come from? the knowledge that god has planned everything according to his good, pleasing and perfect will, and this knowledge comes only though faith.

ironically, i have told people to have faith in what God can do; me, of little faith here. i have 2 apologize 2 jessica 4 not practicing what i preach. xD

and i hereby renounce such depressive thoughts from my life, to refocus and press on for the greater glory in Jesus name.

amen

Tapitoo: perseverence

lets list down my work list

Homework:
- chinese essay
- chinese 5 zuowen tigang
- chinese current affairs test
- english biography
- english book club
- literature crp
- literature tuitorials
- RE portfolio
- RE - a guide to thinkquest
- RE - final report
- ss video
- class decor
- chemistry file
- biology file
- mathematics vectors ta
- physics test - magnetism

Moor house stuff to do:
- edit Moor house drama feste script
- drama feste rehearsals - 2 blocks of 3-4 hour slots a week

Church duties:
- service notes 6/5/07
- service notes 13/5/07
- service notes 3/6/07
- service notes 10/6/07
- service notes 17/6/07
- service notes 24/6/07
- service notes 1/7/07
- abi's farewell on sunday

Waterpolo trainings:
Monday 1530 - 1800
Tuesday 1730 - 1900
Thursday 1730 - 1900
Friday 1430 - 1800
Saturday 0800 - 0930

doesnt this sight really ask for some blood?

sometimes one must ask.
is god really bigger than all this?
is god bigger than facing such the above with almost non-existant sleep of 4 hours or less a night?

but i shall persevere. thank u all who have encouraged me =) i really appreciate such uplifting smses.

goodnight

and please allow me to apologise for my inadequate posts on the retreat which are to be discontinued.