Is dere sum1 hu i can trust???

it is painful wen d ppl hu u trust.....hu u consider such "good" frenz jus blurt out ur most personal and most private tots n things......4 other frenz even if dey do sumthin lyk tt.....i would not feel tt hurt.....but d ppl u trust.....it jus hurts even more......lyk u jus got stabbed in ur back......2dae is a gre8t example.....i showed mi fren sum of d messages sent 2 mi 4rom mi frenz....tt i tot were veri encouragin......d veri next dae it was so pissin 2 hear ppl askin mi abt mi relations wif dose frenz......wth lah....GET A SCREWED UP LIFE.....lyk u dun hv ne frenz hu r off opposite age......but lesson learnt......ya jus cant trust ppl jus so easily........mus learn n change.....got enuf of ppl usin mi.........sick of ppl takin advantage of mi......Is dere sum1 hu i can realli trust???Is dere a real fren hu really cares 4 ya n shares ur burdens???It jus sux.....d few tt i realli trust wif mi life r ppl i c jus 1ce a week......wat abt dose ppl i c lyk almost everidae???not mani im realli close 2.....Kenneth???Nicky???David Ng???d rest im not sure now.....i jus dun hv mani ppl hu i can trust.....it jus pisses mi 2 c tt im jus a "floatin bodi" lookin for ppl 2 jus hang out wif....wif no close buddie....IT JUS SUX

Wat hv I changed in2?!?!?!

i noe im not ur goody boi.....i noe i hv nver been d best......but wat has happened 2 mi now?!?!?! it seems tt i hv changed in2 dis monster......it seems lyk a drastic change......now i go F*ck u n point d finger jus 4 d fun of it.....i dunno wat i hv become now.....i dunno wat i am goin 2 do abt it now.....im jus so lost.....i dunno wat 2 do......i call out.....but it seems lyk no 1 is dere 2 listen.....wat hv i become.....WAT HV I BECOME....i was never dis perverse or vulgar.......i never used d word "f*ck" before comin 2 sec skool.....wat hv i become.......i hate wat i hv become......but it jus seems lyk a part of mi now......i jus feel so f*cked up.......so helpless lyk deres nothin....no 1 hu can help mi......n wif dem upcomin tests n projects.........AHHHHH.....im reachin d breakin point man........though i mae not show it........but d animosity 2wards miself......jus keeps welling up n welling up.........i hate miself........no1 understands mi........i dun tell mi parents wat i feel dey wun understand........no1 does.......i hv no true frenz........God doesnt seem 2 help mi........i hate miself........is dere sumthin wrong wif mi???.........is dere sumthin tt i done???......i feel so lonely.......i hate life........mostly i hate miself...........overwhelmed wif hate........i hate wat i do........i apologise 2 dose i hv hurt wif mi language..........its jus mi not u all..........FUCK MI

Worthy???

do I realli deserve dis monitor badge that i will receive tmrw???after all that i hv done???after all everithing i hv done???vandalism,vugarities etc. do i still deserve d badge???dis kinda reminds mi abt God's love for us.....not an entitlement....not something we had.....but something he freely gave....so i ask miself am i Worthy of his love???do i deserve dis free gift, the gift of life???am I Worthy???for all he has done for mi....he sent his onli son 2 die 4 mi and i sinned and did so mani bad things........do i realli deserve his love???am I worthy