jericho

ultimately, its whether or not we choose to keep silent that is the question.

days in rj have been passing really fast, the pace at which everything is progressing in is astounding. and it scares me to think that our progress is considered "slow". damn. im really worried about how fast we all are going to progress, and right now i am barely keeping my head above the watermark.

it is also extremely demoralizing to see people so far ahead and everyone enjoying themselves while i struggle to keep up. despondancy creates this ineffectual learning status, and its really difficult to continue studying. i hate people telling me i should take things easy. but i know i should.

we really have to talk more to other people.

today i stopped 3 laps into my 2.4. my chest was tight and i couldnt breathe normally, and as i stopped my head started to spin, and i threw up in the drain. its sickening to throw up, but i find that i can regurgitate quite easy. after that i felt that sharp pain in my left chest. i dont know what triggered it but its not fun at all. i just lay down there after washing away the vommit from my shirt and pants, unable to fully stretch my chest and taking short breaths for pain normally intensifies when i breathe deeply or stretch my chest.

i think my chest pain stems from my posture and breathing. i have no idea how long it will last, but i hope it goes away. am i over-reacting?