Sux

dis sux.......we won all d other teams........n made it 2 d finals.......RI v ACS I.........n we lost.......10-5.......in 4ront of all our classmates.........in 4ront of d headmaster........we screwed up........we totally lost it..........all our efforts.....all our wins........all gone down d DRAIN..........wat d heck.....our key plaer was in jakarta wen we were goin thru dis crap......n he didnt even tell us he was gonna miss it.......n i had 2 replace his sorri ass.......a pathetic miserable plaer replacin a national swimmer of 26sec for 50m freestyle.......it was CHAO stressin.......how can i replace d drivin force of RI waterpolo's attackin force?!?!?!.......i couldnt do it.........n we lost........issnt dis a gre8t wae 2 wrap up d perfect season.......wif no other losses........except d final game.......we had a choice of ACS Barker or ACS I 2 face in d finals.........y had we 2 win tt match........n face a stronger opponent wifout our keyplaer.........but lookin back on d match..........i cant help but think its all mi fault.............BASK IT.......i mus train harder.........cannot let down d team

Blessings

i went 2 Paya Lebar Methodist church.......David invited mi dere........thank God........dis pastor from South America preached.......and he asked 2 pray 4 the congregation.......i tot dis was kinda normal........until i saw ppl gettin slain.......i didnt wan 2 miss out again........n i was slain :).......d feelin was so peaceful........after i got up........i kneel down n started prayin........dis guy approached mi n asked wat probs was i facin........i jus saed alot.........den he saed tt i would be set free.......n made mi stand up n prayed 4 mi........n it happened again........i jus fell over........Thank u Lord........thanks David 4 invitin mi 2o

2dae

2dae was good........... :) ............been lookin 4ward 2 dis kinda dae 4 dis dae..........church roxed 2dae.......so enlightenin 2dae......... :) ...........U REALLI NOE MI..........THANK U

USELESS

I BLEW IT.......all dis tawk of changin......all dis tawk of bein a better person......all d tears shed wen realisin tt i was astray.......n tt i needed 2 change.....all GONE......GONE......f*ck......i can never change......jus lyk a leopard can never change its spots........i can never be good.......i can never get rid of DIS side of mi......NEVER.......2dae i broke dis resolution tt i made 2 stop saein f*ck......i jus blew it........mi dam frenz.......i lent dem mi hp.......n dey sent "i luv u" 2 gal contacts.......n i jus lost it.........pointed d finger.......n saed f*ck........OH MAN........i can never change........u hear mi???.........NEVER........its useless tryin 2..........i tried so mani times..........ITS DAM USELESS........ive lost lyk all hope..........im a failure........im a useless person........dun try 2 help mi.........ITS USELESS 2 TRY HELPIN A USELESS PERSON.......LORD PLEASE.........DO NOT PUT MI THRU DIS.........PLEASE........LORD I WANTED 2 CHANGE........BUT IT JUS SEEMS USELESS TRYIN NOW.........i jus feel lyk i hv hardened miself........i dunno y.......but mi heart has grown numb......NUMB 2WARDS U......i hate dis feelin........i feel jus so pissed wif miself.......y am i so DAM NUMB.........PLEASE DO SUMTHIN LORD........DO SUMTHIN WIF MI.........mabbe its useless 2 even sae........coz i sux........

DAM

under "used"

do u ever feel lyk ppl dun gif u enuf opportunites.......lyk u r bein left out.......lyk ur neither here nor dere.......neither good nor bad.......i do....in waterpolo......not d best......not d lousiest......stuck in d middle......not good enuf.....nor bad enuf.......so weird lah.......cant make it 2 1st team........yet cant make it 2 2nd team........no opportunites 2 be d best i can........i feel lyk a failure........mabbe i am.......most probably i am.......y dun i jus gif up........i can never make it.......its jus useless 2 continue.......so lyk lost now..........do i gif up.........or do i jus continue bein dis failure i am

Good Dae??? Never

d best dae of mi life..........2dae???......could hv been but no dae is perfect........1 dae after mi bdae........im 14 n life was goin kind well 4 mi..........we plaed ACS I n won..........:) n we were treated 2 Pizza Hut......coz dis is a veri crucial match......we r lyk almost guaranteed a place in d finals.....n we did it!!!.....God saw mi thru tt match........he gave mi strength n speed 2 take over tt big responsibility of replacin d top swimmer in d team........THANK U LORD..........went 4 3rd lang.........n found out tt didnt miss much in skool......tts good......got mi jap results back......nearly failed........sux.........went back home n had dis nap.....or tried to......its so weird......i lie down tryin 2 slp but yet i cant.......realised tt i have not been slpin in d afternoon since lyk 1 year ago.....now comes an energized time......now tt im 14......now i dun get tired even if i slp at 4 n wake up at 6......makes mi miss mi old life.......i miss feelin tired.......in d evenin.......i tell abt mi results.......d ALMOST perfect dae got ruined.......parents screwed mi upside down.....n am still gettin screwed........haiz......nothin is perfect........nothin ever will be......

Its mi bdae?!?!

so shockin...........life passes so fast........so dam fast.......im suddenly 14 tmrw..........its dam freaky......lyk i can still remember pri 1.......n im sec 2 now..........haiz miss bein sec 1........miss bein pri 6......miss sum old frenz.......dun miss sum........so mixed up.......time flies........life jus passes lyk it was never dere........it passes lyk fadin notes on a old score.......till at once it is forgotten........not realli lookin 4ward 2 dis bdae.......bein 14 is not sumthin 2 be so joyful abt....... im not lookin 4ward 2 it......im exposed 2 more of dis grownup probs........it totally sux.........jus wanna be 13 again.........jus wanna be 13 everidae

U screw mi up n leave mi 2 die!!!

its jus another dae.....n im kinda used 2 it liaoz.......it starts wif a trip 2 J8.......walkin around J8 hvin so much fun.......laughin awae.........tryin 2 find a place 2 eat......now it starts.......after walkin past dis overhangin part of d upper floor......n mi "frenz" jus start laughin n tell mi 2 look up......bein d regular blur ass i am i jus do.......n i c dese gals wearin mini skirts leanin on tt railin.......n dey look down n c mi.......we go in2 a sports shop n hide awae.......n den dey come at mi wif dis huge crowd of lyk 10 ppl.......we walk out of d shop......n den 2 ppl walk off n watch ppl plae xbox games......d crowd still comes after mi......i was stopped but do d rest stop??? NO.......DEY WALK OFF.........1st u screw mi up.......n u leave mi 2 DIE........but dey make mi call u guys back........n i dunno y but i still cover 4 u all........but thank God in d end its still okay.......jus apologies no police report.......but point is.........Y DID U LEAVE MI ALONE.......Y DID U LEAVE MI!!!!!!!!!! FUCKING SHIT.......