hypocrisy
dont you understand?
there is no difference if there is or isnt god.
god doesnt change anything.
he only prevents us from seeing our own sin.
and realizing our defects.
ultimately there is no cure to this condition.
only death.
god is merely a blind to it all.
today i watched people raise their hands and close their eyes in reverent worship. and i was so disgusted at the hypocrisy that i almost screamed and smashed the glass. if we are 2 worship it should only be logical, or not worship at all. emotions fail and they disgust me.
everything is disgusting. repulsive. look closely at your own face, there is nothing to be proud of. i never realized how disgusting and shameless i am, showing off such a face in public. i hate my face. it disgusts me.
the more i look at myself, i feel like mutilating this fucking body. it is a most repulsive thing. and to look behind all this physical blinds lies the most hideous part of the entire human. the soul.
I HATE MY SOUL. there is nothing but ego-centric and self-preservation. it disgusts me. i want to die and be rid of this, yet my will to live overpowers me. suffocation doesnt work. jumping leaves no second choice. and because i live, people suffer. fuck. fuck this life. fuck everything. fuck the body. fuck the disgusting hideous monstrosity. fuck all humans. fiends. self centred dumbfucks. pretending in church to be kind and caring. fuck you all man.
until we die:
1. we shall avoid god - he warps your thinking with his advocation of salvation.
2. we shall avoid looking at mirrors - for the face is the emblem of pride.
3. we shall avoid irrational emotions - they give birth to madness.
4. we shall train ourselves to live in sincerity - there is none.
there is no difference if there is or isnt god.
god doesnt change anything.
he only prevents us from seeing our own sin.
and realizing our defects.
ultimately there is no cure to this condition.
only death.
god is merely a blind to it all.
today i watched people raise their hands and close their eyes in reverent worship. and i was so disgusted at the hypocrisy that i almost screamed and smashed the glass. if we are 2 worship it should only be logical, or not worship at all. emotions fail and they disgust me.
everything is disgusting. repulsive. look closely at your own face, there is nothing to be proud of. i never realized how disgusting and shameless i am, showing off such a face in public. i hate my face. it disgusts me.
the more i look at myself, i feel like mutilating this fucking body. it is a most repulsive thing. and to look behind all this physical blinds lies the most hideous part of the entire human. the soul.
I HATE MY SOUL. there is nothing but ego-centric and self-preservation. it disgusts me. i want to die and be rid of this, yet my will to live overpowers me. suffocation doesnt work. jumping leaves no second choice. and because i live, people suffer. fuck. fuck this life. fuck everything. fuck the body. fuck the disgusting hideous monstrosity. fuck all humans. fiends. self centred dumbfucks. pretending in church to be kind and caring. fuck you all man.
until we die:
1. we shall avoid god - he warps your thinking with his advocation of salvation.
2. we shall avoid looking at mirrors - for the face is the emblem of pride.
3. we shall avoid irrational emotions - they give birth to madness.
4. we shall train ourselves to live in sincerity - there is none.
